I am so grumpy lately, and I hate it. Being grumpy just doesn't suit me. But theater is getting to be a big headache. The fine arts program is very cliquish, and if you aren't in the fine arts staff, then your production doesn't really matter to the fine arts staff. When I did Cripple, it was considered an english department show, and I was literally given the icy shoulder about it from teachers I loved. My acting teacher makes her acting classes go see two shows to review during the semester, and one definitely has to be a center stage show.Even though I was in her class at the time, she made sure to emphasize how you did NOT have to go see Inishmaan. Then she'd go on about my directors style, and how it wasn't great because he's an english professor and blah blah blah. I thought that was all a little funny, the icy reception and all. I mean, isn't theater just theater? I didn't realize there were factions of it at this school.

Flash forward to now. I'm doing two different shows this summer. One of them is for the History Theater that started up on campus last year. The other is the center stage big musical. Well, before auditions even happened, I was approached by the fine arts people about how I "might not be able to be cast" if I got involved with the History Theater people. Bzuh? The schedule's do not conflict in any way whatsoever, and I will only have to miss one musical rehearsal. ONE. and it's early in the run too. There's a huge war going on between the higher ups in both the history and fine arts groups and it just makes me sick. I just want to do what I love, not get pulled into choosing sides, because people I love are on both sides. I don't want to be in the middle of this mess. I'm just not going to mention that I'm involved with the history theater when I audition for the musical, because this whole mess is just stupid. The fine arts people are trying to stonewall the history theater people. Can't we all just get along theater people? No, of course not, because then we wouldn't be theater people would we?

So, I've had lots of Queen blaring lately to keep myself amused. This video is something I watch a lot. I absolutely adore the chase scene in it. From Freddie's stocking feet to the pure light hearted and happy mood of the whole thing, I just adore it. And Freddie's dancing in front of the mirrors is just so much love. He moved so fluidly, it's beautiful to watch.



What I wouldn't give to have been able to see them live.

And this song here, it makes me well up and get all teary and emotional. Not what I need, but I still love it.It's so beautiful. And I love the story behind it. Freddie's relationship with Mary was awesome, I'd love to be that close to someone.



Seriously do not need to keep listening to that song. House's finale last night left me enough of an emotional wreck. Seriously, it distressed me like no other. God I hate season finales. They always leave me a wreck. What is it with this dying trend that seems to go all over the place. I hate death, the sorrow from those left behind just eats at my insides.